Reason..

yesterday went broadway(coffeeshop) to have dinner with my dad. It was lousy. The discussion made the dinner unbearable. My dad talk-ed about my sister. And he made a comparison with my cousin. wtf. He concluded it with a sentence something like that, "see how audrey and amanda is doing so well in their studies? having good grades recognition in school!" nothing wrong with that but it is this sentence i'm going to tell you next that pissed me off, "they work in the morning and pay for their studies at night!"wtf! Since young he having been telling us that he will not compare us with anyone and what's more he is even suggesting us to work in the morning, earn ourselves some money and study in the night! That is where is coming from and where he is going to. wtf!

After dinner, i walked home quickly. can't be bothered with them. When i reached home my dad called me to his room. i said FINE! i kept my cool and reasoned with him! wth luh. i don't wanna write anymore fck it luh!

My Auntie.. and my emo heart.

All this while, i have been speaking ill-ly about my auntie, i dun feel sad or regret. She is like that! However, last week, my parents went over to bangkok for a holiday. As im still having school, im not able to follow. SO I"M STUCK WITH HER- My Auntie!!! I decided to be a men. I control myself. There was this one day when i was at home, she was doing house work. And she had an ashma attack. She was wizzing, She was panting. It was real loudly. BUT she still hold on to the handle of the vaccum cleaner tightly and quickly finish the house work. Instantly, my heart melted. At that moment i don't hate her! Instead, i want to help her. BUT i don't want to talk to her.

I thought of something creative, usually after vaccuming the she will wash the plates and rest. When she went into the floor to vacum, i quickly ran to the kitchen, took out the sponge, poured some soap on it and started washing the plates as quickly and undetected as possible. I don't know why but, it seemed that i enjoyed myself alot even just for that 5-10mins. =)

I ASKED JOANNA: DO YOU LOVE ME 3 TIMES

That earlier morning, while walking to school with joanna, i asked her do you love me 3 times. I wonder if she will deny me! the roster will crow. LOL anyway, the first time i asked her at the MRT junction, DO YOU LOVE ME? guess what was her reply, "HAhNA, HAhNA!" so lovely aye!

The second time i asked her "DO YOU LOVE ME?!", BEFORE READING ON GUESS WHAT WAS HER REPLY? She said "What?!" I wonder the "what" is "what you want?!" or "what luh, don't disturb me?!" at this point of time, i'm already feeling emo.

Finally, at the straight path to agora south (school) i asked her again, "DO YOU LOVE ME?!" SHE SMILED AT ME AND SAID, "ORH!!!" from this face =...=" become to this face =::::"( hmm... what can i say?!!